I've been living with a shadow overhead I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I've been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need em again someday I've been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine I've been searching but I just don't see the signs I know that it's out there There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light Not just somebody just to get me through the night I could use some direction And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart again I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end oh, oh, oh
There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart to you I'm hoping you'll show me what to do And if you help me to start again You know that I'll be there for you in the end oh, oh, oh
dad's having a bad diabetes time..medicine gonna cost 200 bucks every month..
house bill 100 bucks..50 bucks for internet..60 bucks for hp..60 bucks to cover bro's hp..100 bucks to cover my mum's transport..
tat will be 570 bucks excluding insurance and my daily expenses.
in all 1320 bucks minimum.
so tat will left me with just 600 odd for the rest of the month.
if i am getting a loan for my studies..hurray den..
coz tat will be another 400 odd..so i am left with just 200 odd every month..
above situation does apply if my mum decides to convert to part time..and my dad to cover my bro's expenses..
i hate this situation a lot..i thought the worst is over..the poly days wun come back again..but it seems to be haunting me..
i hate the days of having not enough money to eat..tat i have to use up every cent in my bank account..i hate waiting for pay day..
yes..no doubt i have savings..but tats not enough!
let's imagine tat my mum converts to part time and my dad stop working..
congrats to me..i will be the breadwinner of the house le..
i can foresee all the financial burdens tat i have in future..
no more diving trips..no more travelling..nothing else..
i have no choice but to love money..i have no choice but to work very hard for it..
going forward will be another 2 tough years..
and my bro..the school fees..i reali have a love-hate r/s with him..cant he use his eyes to see wats going on in the family and stop spending money on tat his gf..i nv see any musical when i was 15 or 18!!! i was struggling like hell to work n study..and yet he can enjoy his phantom with his gf..wth! no doubt its the cheapest ticket!!! going to clinic for drinks..taking cabs..all these need money!!!!
if he's working...i will keep my mouth shout! but he's not!!!!
he has no cca in school..no anything at all!!! why cant he find a part time job!!!
when will he ever start to think..we are no rich family kids..
seriously..i think i have everything i reali need..except money..
enough of the ranting above..just wanna get it out of my chest..
*please take care of our health..diabetes is a chronic disease..once not taken care of..it can endanger your life..high blood pressure too..it can lead to stroke.. watever health problems..medical expenses in singapore can be quite high..prevention is better than cure..let us start from now..
